d r e a m -

chin up

this is just an ordinary post
contains words from my heart
that i want to spill out

again
when i was walking alone
in my own forest
its sunny and its a perfect weather
for me to enjoy
but i was wrong
the sky started to gloomy
that pair of eyes could see dark clouds
were approaching each other

but still
i acted like nothing happened
i still kept walking
i still kept following those butterflies
that i believed will lead me
to beautiful flowers

then

i could hear the scary storm & thunder
i could see the lightning striking each other hardly
i closed my ears and eyes
and ran hardly to the tree

i was very scared
it happened again

those butterflies had broken wings
and my forest was in dark
i cried, loudly
no one would hear it tho

and all i ever did was
crying in fear

i have a trauma
to this situation
i was scared
that it might happen again

i was scared
that i might lose
the forest
that have the flowers
that i planted them
the forest
that have butterflies
that i caught them
by myself.

i was in that situation

until

i felt that
my eyes hurt by the sunlight
i no longer hear the scary sounds
or even see the horrible lightnings

then

i saw the butterflies fluttered around me
with its beautiful wings
i saw the flowers blossomed around the forest
with their unique colours
i was impressed
by those things

later

i followed the butterflies
going through the clear forest
until i saw
a rainbow.

i fell
i cried
i regretted
that i forgot
i still have Allah,
who already planned this for me.

i believed,
He want me to feel the sorrow first
then the joy.
He want me to remember that
He's always right there for everyone
who needed Him.

im embarassed.
eventho i forgot Him
but never in a second
He forget abt me
instead
He gave me
the clear forest
the beautiful flowers and butterflies
and also a rainbow
just to make me happy
to make me smile
to make me forget the bad things

I was so blind for not notice those things

but now
Ive seen it
and feel it

Thanks to Allah
cause without Him

im just a dried leaves
which is useless one.

and now Ive become stronger
Im not scared of those things anymore

even if they will come
I believe
Allah has prepared
a rainbow
for me

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