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here i am again.
with zero feeling.

i feel so feelingless.
i feel so empty.
like theres something that is uncompleted.
but id never know what.

i do feel that im a loser.
a bastard.

why?

all the time,
i keep hurting ppl,
without me noticing it.

with my words or even actions.

eventho in those times that i tried to show my love to them,
i would just keep hurting them more.

i feel so stupid.
i feel like a fool.

tears falling apart.
with zero reason.

i cried bcs of me.
even myself didnt know whats happening.

i feel bad,
bcs of myself.
i feel worst,
bcs of myself.

it just start,
with me.

sometimes,
i do feel like suiciding.
sometimes,
i do feel like i wasnt supposed to breath.
sometimes,
i do feel like i shouldnt be human at all.
sometimes,
i do feel like i must hide.

and how i wish,
i could be invisible.

i want to stop
hurting people
hurting their feelings

i want to prevent them
from leaving me
apart

i want to be happy
with them
by my side

but i still keep hurting them

i knew
i dont deserve any chance

bcs that were all the same mistakes
that i always do

i want to run
i want to fly
i want to hide
from them
from ppl who know me

i want them
to live happily
i want them
to see the rainbow
and not storm anymore
i want to see
their smiles
and not their tears

i just want to see them
be happy
like they used to be

im such a burden
to everyone

im sorry
ill never be good enough
im sorry
i keep doing the same mistakes
im sorry
i didnt change
im sorry
im such a killer
im sorry
im a ruiner
im sorry
for being
myself

im just sorry
for everything

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